she didnt even reply to me. she must have just forwarded it my dad and had him call me.
he was nice to me…probably because i was crying. but still he was like “this isnt the first time we’ve told you about having to pay for college” even though it pretty much is…if anything he may have said like my freshman year or something that we might have to take out some loans but im pretty sure i would have remembered if he said i would have to pay for school. i am the good child that listens to them afterall…
but now im just angry at my mom for not replying and passing me off to someone else
all the sudden my parents are like “you need to start looking for student loans” which is a super indirect way of telling me that i’m gonna have to pay for my own tuition. and right now when im already stressed about not having a job is definitely not really the best time to tell me this. the best time to tell me would have been like in highschool so i could have actually saved up money, but they always said they had been saving up money for a long time for our college fees so i assumed they had me covered. and they make too much money for me to receive any financial aid or grants so basically I have to pay more because they make a lot of money. that makes sense if they are the ones paying but not if the poor college child is paying it. i just sent a passive aggressive-ish message to my mother about this so we’ll see how she responds.
watched sytycd to make myself feel better :)
i am so very glad that you found your dogs! it made me smile :)
but whatever.
so i didnt hear back by 5 like i was supposed to so i didnt know what to do. my dad and my friend that work at the student org. center said i should just stay over night in austin to wait in case they just didnt get emails out in time. so i was just gonna stay but i was super stressed about it. but then at like 6 i got an email and i didnt get the job. so now i guess im going home. and i kinda just wanna sit here and cry all night or something, but i also dont want to have to drive home in the morning. and its dumb that im crying? like i dont even know why? i guess just things arent going as planned and its stressing me out. and getting denied always sucks too. and waiting. and not knowing. lksdjfalsjd
i hate that i make so many plans in my head. because they never work out.
also, you would think that by now i would know that procrastinating is a bad thing. i was all excited about this job working at the nursery for this church that is super close to my apartment but i waited too long to finish their application and now the job posting is gone. lskdjfal
andddd i had it all planned out in my head that i would just get 2 jobs at ut but apparently you cant really do that cause there is a max amount of hours im allowed to work at UT. im just waiting to hear back about my student org. job - i should know within the next hour. and if i get it i need to stay here for training tomorrow. but if i am offered the physics job, i would prefer that one, except i wont know if they hire me until AFTER training for student org. so idk what to do. and what if i dont get either? then im back to having no job when i thought i was gonna have three. lsdjfals
but im coming back! im driving back to frisco thursday and at least staying through the weekend. not sure how long for sure though.
interview numero uno in t-minus 1 hour! eeek
i just wanted to come home and do nothing for like a week but then i got an interview and wednesday was the only day they could do it so i have to go back to austin wednesday and i was hoping to just go for the day and then come back home but i got another interview and they want me to come in on thursday. i mean jobs are great and all but cant everything just wait until im readyyyy??
last night alyssa and i went over to albert’s place to hang out with people and we went outside to leave and her car was gone. it was so scary. it just got towed but at first we were worried it may have gotten stolen or something. she has already moved out of her dorm and is living with me for a few days so ALL of her stuff is in her car. but apparently we didnt park in a visitor spot (even though its horribly marked) so it got towed :( luckily we were with other people and people with cars so they called the towing place for us and found her car and then drove us out to the sketch parking lot to pick it up. and then she had to pay 200 dollars to get it back and her card got declined. so that sucked. luckily albert had enough money on his account so she used his card. i felt really bad cause im the one that wanted to go over to albert’s so it was my fault that we were there :(
